January 23, 2008
It has been hard to sit at the internet café and concentrate, so I’m writing this in my room and carrying it over to the café via my new memory stick. I’m a bit torn about pressing my landlords to get me direct cable in my apartment. If I get it, I know I’ll revert to my old habits of obsessing over reading email every 2 hours and spending way too much time thinking in English. I am actually making friends with the three people who staff the internet café, and I am looking into trading English for Bosnian conversation. Today, while I was working I was offered a tray of Turkish coffee and a traditional Turkish sweet treat. I’ve been smiling at everyone, and it’s pretty nice that people here are responding.
Today I had my Bosnian lesson with Ema in a restaurant. Next time we are going shopping, and I am going to practice my (well rehearsed) lines to buy stuff at the green market. If I can deliver a semi-literate request asking whether anybody can replace my watch battery, I’ll be doing well. After that I’m going to interview Ema (again, well-rehearsed, written questions) about her time in Oregon. So far, if I give myself a chance to look up some of the verbs I don’t know and compose my thoughts, I can kind of have a conversation. Watching TV is really helping.
Last night I walked the 3 blocks to the National Theater and saw a play called
Crying Game. It had just 3 actors in it, and they were caught in a top floor flat during the bombing of Sarajevo (or it could be in a communist-era flat or …) and they’re dealing with distress, anxiety, and dismay. For $8 I got 3rd row seats and I surprised myself with how much I understood. I guess angst translates well. The acting was terrific. I would love to see them in another play. That was my first stab at just showing up and seeing what the theater is like, and so tonight I’m going to see The Wedding, a play by Gogol. I’m so illiterate that I don’t know the story line in English, but maybe that’s the way. Anyway, it beats watching reruns of
Everybody Loves Raymond with Bosnian subtitles on TV.
There are a bunch of Americans here, and I’ve got about 5 numbers in speed dial now. John and Melinda are my most frequent friends. They are in their mid 20’s and have been here since September. John told me that the football playoffs are on live TV and he helps me with getting SIM cards for the phone and stuff like that. I watched the Patriots play on Sunday, and it was a riot listening to the plays in Bosnian. “Novi Prvi Down!!” Melinda and I can blow a few hours going shopping at Mercator, their equivalent of Walmart/Target. We eat well. Andi just arrived and we’re starting to hang out, too. She is between undergrad and grad school and is interning at the US embassy for 3 months. And Jean is my age and an economics professor who does a lot of consulting for the US Treasury dept. She has lived in Sarajevo for 10 years and is installed here, in every sense of the word.
I’m quite content not doing anything but language acquisition. I buy the Bosnian newspaper every other day and listen to the economics news on Bosnian TV, but I don’t feel driven to start my sabbatical research yet. It doesn’t feel exactly like a vacation, but more like a self-directed learning opportunity, where a 5 mile walk to explore another part of town is as valid an activity as reading Harry Potter in Croatian (I am now on Ch. 7 of Vol I!!) or buying 2 kilos of carrots at the peasant market. I saw an interview with Fazla, a pop singer and liked his music so I went out and bought his CD. Could this be the first pop music I’ve purchased in 40 years? Probably. Anyway, I’m translating his lyrics and just singing to it in Bosnian. Ema was amused, but also clued me into the politics of Fazla, the singer. Everything here has edge, context, complexity. It’s all constructive, or at least it seems that way to me. I have to say that I really, really like getting up and framing my day any way I feel like.
I’m playing (note, not practicing) my violin about every other day and for some reason dragging my feet about calling Boris, a violin teacher who has been recommended. I’m still trying to deal with my inhibition of playing my violin in an apartment building where I think other people are listening to me and my general aversion (of the moment) of doing anything that is compulsory work. Anyway, I’ll work through that. I’m painfully aware of what the crawl back to finger fluency is like, so I won’t let myself get rusty.
So far what I am finding out about myself is that I really, really like urban, and it can be so urban that I don’t use a car but rather the tramway or walk. I don’t miss any convenience of having a car, and in fact, I really like getting out in public. It feels good to me to be out walking on crowded streets. But what this means is that it has to be an urban environment that is viable. Downtown Cleveland doesn’t fit this bill, and the suburban marketplaces don’t either. True pedestrian cities like New York, Boston, Paris, Washington are more like it. I like buying what I need for the next two days and then going out again, and I really like having lots of short conversations with all sorts of people.
It’s 8 a.m. here and I’m due for a wake-up walk. Not to worry, I’m doing economics, just observational economics at the moment. So far this has been a really good decision to come here.
More later,
Love, Shirley